Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Turning Points

There comes a time where a milestone or an event will create a new path for us in life. Not like the normal twists and turns of life as the years pass, but something that influences us with great depth and gives us no choice but to make dramatic changes. I call these turning points.

I've had several significant turning points in my life. I've always said that my son being sick, as sad and scary as those years were, turned out to be the beginning of some of the best times - and certainly the most positive changes - in our lives.

Taking care of my Grandmother certainly left its mark on me as well. Many wonderful memories were created, and old memories were shared and relived. What I've walked away with is invaluable. And now, with her passing, I can feel a major shift coming on... and I know I will look back on this time as another major turning point in my life.

It pays to recognize and respect these invisible guides throughout life. They usually come in the worst form, strip us clean, but then leave us with much more than they took. Less like a test, and more like a preparation ritual.

Without them we might become complacent and never veer from what is comfortable or familiar. Change comes hard, and usually only when forced.

I saw that in Katrina, as devastating and horrific as it was... I knew that there were many people out there that were getting a second chance. A time to start over, with a clean slate. Perhaps to walk away from a life that was mundane or difficult... and begin again in a new place, with new hope in their heart.

Obviously this wasnt the case for everyone affected by Katrina, but coupled with the sadness and horror that I felt for those victims... I knew in my heart that there were some that would look back on this as a major positive turning point in their lives.

Fate or Free Will? It always makes for a good debate. We all know that we wont live forever, so I guess you could say the passing of my 93yo Grandmother was "fate". But I know in my heart that what happens in my life from this point forward is certainly "free will".


When my thoughts finally do settle and things become more clear, I know that I will be ready to move forward. Not now, but hopefully soon. At the moment my mind is so full of thoughts day and night that just thinking is consuming every ounce of energy that I have.

5 Comments:

At 4:52 PM, Anonymous Liz (eebee) said...

Great message and so true. 30% of New Orleans citizens were unemployed and living in poverty. Some of those people will find new chances in a new place. I hope we won't forget about them once they are all housed in temporary trailer homes. The "temporary" homes built in the UK after the war were still being lived in 30 years later- and may still be.

 
At 3:16 PM, Anonymous Jason Moffatt said...

Beautiful post Lynn,

it made me think of the song by the
Byrds, Turn, Turn, Turn........

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time of war, a time of peace
A time of love, a time of hate
A time you may embrace
A time to refrain from embracing

To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time to love, a time to hate
A time of peace, I swear it's not too late!

 
At 3:16 PM, Blogger Expat Traveler said...

Lynn,

I still find it incredible that you can still come on the computer and try to do something. You amaze me at how much you accomplish always.

And your grandmothers death seems quite similar to when it happened to me about 4 years ago now (I'm about 2 years yonger than you).

She died at age 93 also but it was on my mom's birthday that she had a heart attack! My mom knew something was wrong because it was the first time ever in her life that my grandmother didn't wish her a happy birthday on the phone. It still brings tears to my eyes that it happened on that day.

I on the other hand was able to escape a lot of the pain as I was headed to Europe to start another life. Stay busy and keep doing the things you love doing. Your life will come back in order. At least you have so many great memories of her. :-)

 
At 12:03 PM, Blogger Dan Reinhold said...

A song inspired, of course, by the Book of Ecclesiastes...

 
At 10:03 PM, Blogger Lynn Terry said...

Thank you, Jennifer :-)

Staying busy has been a real save these last couple of weeks...

I've heard from so many people who were especially close to their own grandmother - such beautiful stories. It has helped me in so many ways... specifically to gain perspective.

Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts :)

 

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